Save my body

I honestly need to stop mistreating my body like this.

 

It all started at the end of last year, when I hit my highest weight ever, and I couldn't accept it anymore, and took to dieting. Lost a total of 8kilos in 2 months, and personally, I can't see the difference, and it's apparently not visible to my family either, but people who I've been seeing recently who hasn't seen me has been telling me I lost quite a substantial amount of weight, and am looking so much better. But seriously speaking, it still isn't enough to me.

 

And this kinda scares me, because I don't know how much more is enough going to be, and I'm afraid I'd never be able to stop even when and if I hit the acceptable weight range for my height, which is a good 7-10kilos less than what I am currently weighing.

 

My diet, is seriously one that I would not recommend to anyone at all, considering how for that entire 2 months up till Chinese New Year this year, I took only one, extremely tiny meal a day to lose all that weight. And still, despite wanting to lose weight, I am still unwilling to exercise. Which, honestly, shouldn't be the way to go.

 

I stopped that ridiculous diet, but even so, my body has been thoroughly ruined already. Anyone who has been through extreme diets would know what I mean... My digestive tracks are totally not working as per how a normal person's would, and my stomach is constantly growling even if I am not hungry. I just can't explain it either. Although, luckily for me, I am not (have not been) plagued by any gastric issues (before), and seriously, I hope it remains as such.

 

Recently though, I've been going on just one meal a day again due to being busy at work, and I'm feeling the repercussions right now. Even though it has helped me to lose another 2kilos in just 1.5 weeks, it's not going down very well with my body. Feeling all so uncomfortable right now, and my stomach is just growling on and on even though I had dinner. Albeit it being a late one, closer to 8pm, and my previous meal being slightly before 12pm, and just a bowl of cereal.

 

Told myself to have proper meals this week, even if just for mon-thurs where I don't have to work, but it's just not happening. What with nobody being home, I just tend to skip my meals because I get lazy to prepare food for just myself, and am even more lazy at the thought of going out to get a meal. And because of that, I end up eating at like 4 or 5 when I get really hungry, and skip dinner which makes just only one meal a day again.

 

And as if that isn't bad enough, I'm getting really little sleep. Ever since night fest 'officially' began, I sleep really late and wake up even later, but after the weekends were over, I still sleep really late and yet, wake up really early, and then am not able to go back to sleep. Yet at night, I still can't sleep early. Just take last night for example... I slept close to 5am :( It's not even that I don't want to sleep... I just somehow, can't.

 

THIS. NEEDS. TO. S.T.O.P.

 

My body just cannot take it anymore T^T

I'm back!

So, I've not posted anything for quite awhile now, and the only reason I can offer, is really just due to the fact that I've been REALLY busy.

 

It was examination week, and immediately after that ended, I've been working for 2 events, natas fair as well as Night Festival, which is still on going, which explains the long hiatus I had on blogging.

Really wanted to update some stuff, but I didn't even have the energy to turn on my laptop during this whole time, and it wasn't until Sunday, of which I spent the entire day sleeping till I had some time to myself!

 

Honestly speaking, I'm really worried for my papers, and I'm not too sure how I'd fare, but right now, as long as I get a pass, I'd be more than happy. As long as I don't have to remodule, all would be fine!

Not exactly looking forward to the new semester, because that'd mean the start of an awkward time again, because my friends all got into a different class than mine, and that's just, urgh!

 

Still contemplating if I should change my Tuesday morning class to Friday morning though, considering the fact that I have 2 classes on Tuesday, of which one, is supposedly damn heavy content, and that I'd have a whole 3 hour worth of break in between lessons.

But classes on Friday would totally mean not being able to work for ad-hoc event jobs as much as I would like to! Although really, I could just go look for some perm-part-time job. But that thought kinda scares me, what with being the fact that I haven't held a proper job post since late 2010, and only working for events instead...

 

Well, Natas fair was not too bad for a first time experience working at a travel fair, but to be honest, the company I was with, was just not as great as some of the other companies I've worked with before. BUT, came out of it with new friends (especially Melly), and that's just swell!

 

Night Festival though, is really something of a disappointment this year. The acts are just not comparable to last year's, and after the success of last year's, this year's just don't cut it. Audiences come expecting better things then last year, but honestly, nothing seems to be able to beat the Argentinian act. The foreign act for this year is a little to solemn and slow placed, and just not as exciting. And the local acts, well, lets just say I've seen better.

 

One more weekend to go, and I hope this weekend, my body clock won't be as screwed up as last weekend! And, all the best to a good show ahead!

EVIAN: Baby & Me

I bet most if not all of you should have heard about the Evian Baby and Me app, and most probably played with it too!

 

I tried it out finally, after having downloaded it, and left it there for like close to a month.

 

My babies, all turned out to be a boy, no matter the amount of times I tried!

I want girl babies!!! :(((

 

But anyway, here they are~~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Other than the bottom two babies where I used my hair to cover up the uneven jawline, it seems, my babies would take after my uneven ugly jawlines. HUH, sian:(

I hope fate won't be so mean to my babies in future though...

And that they won't be so mean as to not give me any daughters either! I would really love to have a baby girl to dress her up all pretty, and bring her out on dates to pamper ourselves with, like high tea, mani-pedis and stuff like that!

 

On a side note, mani-pedi date with the mumsie on Monday! Can't wait:)))

Day out with the sis

If you didn't already know, I do have a younger sister, just a year apart from me. (And a brother 4 years my junior as well)

Sometimes, I do find it quite upsetting that we don't get to spend as much time as I'd like together.

Sure, we do share the same room and stuff, and we do talk to each other almost everyday, but it's different from spending time out together.

It's just something that actually is different, doing stuff together rather than the mundane...

 

Either way, way before the movie came out, I told her we should go catch secretly greatly together, and then after that, I won myself a pair of free tickets to the show, and we finally did catch it together just yesterday afternoon together, in between all her busy schedule.

Yes, HER busy schedule. Seriously, if not for the fact that we share a room, I might not even see her face, what with her being so preoccupied with her dance!

But that's another story for another time...

 

So SPOILER ALERT if you've yet to watch the movie, and don't want any spoilers, please skip the next 2 paragraph!

And so, I must say, Kim Soo Hyun is a freaking good actor. Like award worthy...

And then I JUST LOVE PARK KI WOONG so much it's ridiculous, and to have heard him sang in the movie was just an added bonus!
And of course, Lee Hyun Woo was pretty darn good too!! Was quite amazing to see him pool off that young boy naivety and innocence all in one with that of a spy's mind and accuracy and fighting spirit etc..

 

Didn't quite like the fact that the boys had to ALL die at the end of it all, but then as circumstances had it, it was quite inevitable I guess.

Anyway, verdict was that the show was super touching, and actually pulled at heartstrings.

It's like an exclamation of not to judge people by their cover, because beneath their cool exterior, you may find a warm heart. Stuff like that, yea~

 

OK, so actually wanted to grab a bite with her, but then the popcorn had us pretty much bloated already, and tbh, all I had the entire day till then was a slice of bread and the popcorn...

But since we couldn't eat, to spend more time with her, I just took the bus back with her to send her back to school before I came home myself...

Not that we managed to talk a lot, but we did camwhore quite the fair bit, so that's good I guess...

 

 

 

 

On a side note, feeling damn under the weather last two days.

I don't even know what's wrong, and it's just all weird.

Since the night before, I was feeling this urge to throw up while in the car on the way out, but awhile after we got off it seemed fine so I didn't think too much about it. That was until we were on the way back, but the same, as soon as I got off the car it was much better.

Today though was just weird. As I was nearing home, the urge to throw up came, and is still lingering even till now, a good 7 hours later. And it's just the urge. It won't even let me throw it up and feel better. It's choking me and making me feel all bad. Hopefully though, when I wake up in the morning, it'll be better than.